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It's hard not to say I love you when we talk on the phone.

It's hard not to kiss you when I leave.

It's hard not to yell at you for the pain you put me through once again.

It's hard not to try and beat AP's ass.

It's hard not knowing where you're at.

It's hard to sleep with these thoughts running through my brain.

I thought we were married.

I thought you valued our vows.

I quit watching, or I would have caught it earlier.

It's just so tiring to watch.

I believe the first time was in March.

Right before our trip to Tennessee.

I think I saw the signs but dismissed them as depression.

I know the pill problem never stopped either.

Most of the help you did for your niece and the girls was paid for with pain pills.

Do you know how tiring it is to have to worry that your wife is going to steal money to buy pills.

The lies are what hurt.

The gas lighting with you never stopped.

Then you wondered why I had troubles in the bedroom.

It's because I knew the sky was blue even though you told me it was yellow.

It's hard to make love under a yellow sky.

[This message edited by cannibal at 9:54 AM, Wednesday, February 7th]

Beautiful, cannibal. I'm so sorry for your pain.

And it's really hard to respond in words to something that captures the BS experience so well....

On one hand, I fear that few responses mean that too few people have read this. OTOH, it's so powerful, that not responding is the best way to honor it.

Thanks for sharing.

I'm sorry, cannibal, you will get through this like all of us did, a bit bruised and scarred, but you will make it to the other side.

I quit watching, or I would have caught it earlier.

It's just so tiring to watch.

I relate to almost all of this, but these particular lines really stood out to me. As well as the last one, of course.

Thanks so much for sharing!

Sisoon’s point is well taken about honoring this. But I’ll risk honoring it with words. Original poetry is such a powerful medium, so appropriate for this topic, and you are a hell of a poet. Thank you for sharing your art with us.

That is powerful. Thanks for sharing.

You are a talented writer and this is a powerful testament to the betrayed.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful and moving words with us.
You courage has inspired me to continue writing and sharing as I process my feelings and honor them.

I am grateful to you.

❤️

Nuff said.

cannibal

It's hard not knowing where you're at.

In reality, we all knew where they were at, making it all the more upsetting.. You completely capture the essence of the situation.