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words are a tool to connect with the outside our internal emotions.

They are powerful, but they are only one of many tools.

You can say plenty of things, when you say nothing at all.

Your partner will feel it, if your emotions for her are now pure.

After 5 years my wife would not talk details any longer. Feelings or thoughts but she didn't want to rehash the details. I have resented that decision ever since. I think the guilt and shame had taken thier toll. I think she needed to heal from both and having your spouse parade through it over and over was not working for her. I was looping that much I could agree on. She will discuss certain things but sexual details she no longer goes over. The resentment is crushing some days but my healing is on me so I'm 12 years out and going into EDMR. Retirement is looming and I cannot be with my own thoughts. Truthfully she did say she was selfish, never loved the guy, almost destroyed her life and almost lost me and the kids. That she despised her AP. That was something that helped immensely. But it was probably too late because the damage to me was long done. So off to get help I go.

FeelingVeryLow,

Everything might have been said. However, that does not mean everything has been heard or believed. Silence to a betrayed often feels like something is hidden. Silence is a trigger! It may not be the case, but it is important that you understand that trust was brought to its knees when you chose to cheat.

I do not wish to be hard on you. I honestly believe that waywards suffer equally if not in some cases more than the betrayed. I’m just stressing that if your wife isn’t through talking or asking questions, it is important that you understand that not "…everything has been said."

Asterisk

T/J - @jailedmind,

About 4 years out, I played a CD with a song that included endless repetition of a word that sounded like ow's name. W asked if I was trying to rub her nose in her A. I told her truthfully, that I hadn't made the connection, that I had no intention of attacking her.

We talked some, and W said that any mention of the A dumped her into shame. I said again that I had no intention of that. If I asked a question, it was because I wanted the info. I said I thought she realized I stopped wanting to shame a couple of years earlier. She brightened at that. For a while I prefaced every comment or question with something like, 'I am asking this to help me, not to put you down.'

Since then, if one of us - usually me, though it's not more than 2-3 times/year - brings up her A, she can access and share her thoughts and memories without significant affect - it's just part of a conversation.

If you want to talk about something to help you solve your own issues, your W might respond well to your saying so. Not guaranteed to work, but it might.

End T/J

IOW, fvl, my reco is to ask what your BS wants to hear, and do your best to provide it. For many of us, the A is so awful that it takes dozens of iterations at least to begin to integrate it into our life stories.

[This message edited by SI Staff at 8:06 PM, Wednesday, February 25th]