BS 37 (now 52) FWH 34 (now 49) DD 09/25/2008 (From incoming TM) Rday 09/28/2008 (After he phoned his parents, *evil laugh*) M 14 &1/2 years (now 29 & 1/2), together almost 19 (now 34) 2 Boys now 24 & 15

So emotional....15 Year Anniversary

Today has been hard. It feels like most years just pass by but then this year for some reason knocked the wind out of me. Time does heal wounds. We're definitely in a good place and have been for the last 12 years. The mind does play tricks though. I don't check WH emails, social media accts or texts. Those were the hardest to quit doing. I guess I still feel guarded because the last time the rug got pulled from beneath me. Marriage counseling was hard and WH talking about OW was harder to hear. Reconnecting with WH in an intimate way took longer than I thought due to MC. I'm so emotional because it really changed me. I don't even remember the old me before DD. And then today I woke up and thought to myself, who am I?

I'm actually really good at letting go of people and objects, things that don't matter anymore. And to be honest I haven't looked back on this time in almost 5 years. (triggered by Mothers divorce) I had to update my profile today because the last time I was here, I was 47. I'm sure once the date passes, I'll be fine. WH has never spoken to me about it post MC. We moved to another state and started our lives over. I truly believe that was the biggest relief to us both and we needed it. It made our marriage stronger. We've become best friends and love each other's company. We started date nights when we moved. It's so much easier to look at the good times. Hopefully this little black cloud moves out and allows the sun to shine through today.

~ToughasNails~

DD 9/25/2008

RD 9/28/2008

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