It's been 3 weeks
I'm not sure what I'm hoping to gain but I have nowhere else to find support or a outlet.
It's been 3 weeks since I found out he cheated again, I say again as it has happened multiple times over the last 3 years, we're now into double digits, and I just don't know how to let go. I'd found messages and photos three weeks ago of him resuming things with someone he'd cheated with previously.
I realise I should of walked away a long time ago, but I can't can't seem too, and it's breaking my heart, I've lost all motivation to simply exist right now, spending my days replaying messages of theirs in my head, tue constant comparing myself to her and the others. I feel like I'm falling apart emotionally. I want to be able to hate this man with every fibre of my being. But I just can't, and I know by now this isn't going to change, if he's done it this many times. It shows he will never change. I just don't know how to navigate the hurt this time. It feels worse for multiple reasons. And I don't know how to develop a back bone and leave. It's likewise lost every part of myself for this person and i don't know how to get her back.
I don't know what the point of this post is other than to scream into the air and hope someone can relate:/
7 comments posted: Wednesday, December 4th, 2024
