Hey Fable. I have no horse experience, but hopefully someone in your horse community will check on the horses and call animal services if they are being neglected.
As for moving to a new place, that I do get. I left 3 acres in the hills out in the county for a shared house (Separate units, but upstairs neighbors) in town. With no kids, it was very quiet and noisy at the same time. (Quiet — because alone, Noisy because in town and used to the country). This is a great time for a few things, but you will have times it is too quiet. Just accept it. That goes away pretty quickly, but you have to feel the feels, as you know.
*Make it yours. Truly yours. Not for your kids, your ex, just you.
*Get involved. Covid has made this harder, but busy is good. Volunteer, exercise, foster animals, work with therapy horses... Build a new life that fits you.
* Get to know you. This sounds crazy, but I really had no idea who I was anymore. I remembered who I had been 25 years ago, but that girl was now in her 50s and not the same person at all. I doubled down on IC and just good old introspection. This has been the gift from all of this. Rarely do we stop to figure this out, and we get the chance to do it.
* Kids going to school is a bit different than it was when I was young. You can still FaceTime and text and all that. Keep doing that with your DD while filling your time with others. I joined some Meet-up groups to both meet people and to keep busy.
It’s going to be good. The feeling when you close your eyes at night in your space and realize you are not waiting for the other shoe to drop- Totally priceless.
(And congrats on finding a place!)
Me: BS 57 (49 on d-day)Him: *who cares ;-) *. D-Day 8/15/2016 LTA. Kinda liking my new life :-)
**horrible typist, lots of edits to correct. :-/ **