No answers for you, just fellowship.
I too, even now that I’ve moved well on, still wonder how you can be someone’s best friend, "One And Only", "Forever And A Day" etc, etc terms of undying devotion poured out to you in countless verbal declarations, greetings, goodbyes, letters, texts, pillow talk, valentines, anniversary, birthday, Christmas and "just because" cards, over the years, DECADES. The big wedding, the vows, doubling down on your devotion by having a child together, then another, and another, TRIPLING down on your devotion and commitment in the most intimate way possible, living in constant fear that something out of your control might tear you apart like cancer, an accident, a disaster, and then…
Bub-Byee, I’m out, sorry-not sorry, see ya, done with you.
It’s absolutely mind blowing. 25 years of "I can’t live without you…I want to be buried beside you" suddenly gone in a seeming instant. For me, it was in an instant. No foreshadowing. No decline. It was like one of those scenes in a movie where a bus comes out of nowhere and slams away the main character leaving only the shoes behind.
Don’t stare too long at the scene, the shoes in the street, wondering why. Life is too short.
[This message edited by RealityBlows at 1:34 AM, Sunday, February 4th]