I have just got past what i can only describe as a few weeks from hell, really triggered, impulsive thoughts, overthinking everything. WH really dosent understand what hes done. He dosent like me bringing it up as it makes him upset and uncomfortable. Well that's tough.
He keeps telling me it was just a bit of ego boosting and attention, a few messages etc but my mind is just totally overthinking it all and how he has being dishonest. I dont know how to get through it but i dont want to lose him.
He has done everything ive asked and is very remorseful.
Nothing he is saying makes me feel better right now. I have good days and really bad. Ive been getting and feeling extremely angry. I keep crying to my mum and best friend(who are extremely supportive)
I think its also because I had suspicions for a while and i was right all along, and the fact that i icked up on that awful womans(ap) intentions long before it happened.... its like some kind of shock and definitely trauma. Ive been reading not just friends, its a very good read but have found it triggering at the moment so put it down for now.
Can any of you advise how you stopped your brain from overthinking when trying to reconcile :'( ive been reading all the helpful pinned posts on here also. I do want to try and save our marriage but right now im not feeling it 😕 😔 😪
B xx
[This message edited by Bluefairy at 10:54 AM, Monday, October 13th]
